When God’s message to you doesn’t change, even a year later.

How ironic that 213 days ago the key verse on my blog is the verse that God has pointed out to me for today:

““Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:19-21‬ ‭NLT‬

I hopped on this blog to see what my last post was about and saw that it was the same verse! OKAY GOD – MESSAGE RECEIVED. 

Almost a year later, and God is still reminding me of this over and over. Pounding it into my soul. 

God has been continuing to shift my position on what truly matters. In this past month, more than ever, I feel like my intimacy with Jesus has grown. And I’m so excited about it! I feel like God basically said, “You sing to me, you go through the motions, you say you love Me…but I don’t see it truly reflected in your life.”

OUCH. The truth hurts. An the truth smacked me in the face and left me hurting. What was I going to do about it? I was easy to complain about everything, but not do much about it. I wanted closeness with God without paying the price. The price of prayer. The price of realness. The price of sacrifice. The price of comfort.

How can you have a close relationship with someone you don’t make the time for? Bringing excuses instead of true worship.  God wasn’t buying it and my heart wasn’t happy. Playing the game without any substance to back it up. Enough was enough. I reached the breaking point.

For Christmas my parking lot prayer buddy (we pray in the parking lot of our school every Wednesday) bought me a book called, “The Circlemaker” by Mark Batterson. I read it and felt God speak to me so much through it and through His word. It was like He was saying, You want X, Y, and Z…but what are you going to do about it?”

I realized that I needed to be dependent on Jesus through PRAYER if my life was going to have any substance behind it. If I was going to make any kind of difference for the kingdom of God. If I wanted to see my children become men of God. If I wanted a household that was glued to the promises of God. If I wanted the INTIMACY I so desperately craved. 

So here I am in 2016, not the same person I was and filled with joy at the journey I am on with my Jesus. He says to me, “Don’t you dare do it! Don’t you dare put your hope in these temporary things that will not satisfy! That don’t mean anything! Don’t cave in!” In a world that screams a very contrary opposite message to me, Jesus tells me to put my treasures in heaven. Message received.

  

What do we give our time to?

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Luke 12:34

Lately I’ve been trying to re-evaluate some of the things that I give my spare time to. Where exactly do I spend the most time? HOW do I spend my time? When I really CLOSELY evaluated what I gave my time to – I was pretty disappointed, but not altogether shocked. I thought to myself, what if I gave the time I w-a-s-t-e-d or spent on things that weren’t meaningful, and actually took that time to spend with God, sow into others, or serve in some capacity? What would happen? This is something that I’ve currently been walking through, slowly but every so surely, to make sure that I am making the most of my time. I found that I gave a lot of my time to:

1. Facebook/Instagram/Twitter/Social Media in General. This is an easy one. It’s so easy to get lost in the lives and stories of others. It’s easy to want to a post a billion and one thoughts, measure ourselves in likes and comments, and our worth based on what we can show the world. This can be wasteful if we are spending too much time doing these things and not using it for a good purpose. It’s just something to be careful with. Do we check it first thing in the morning and the last thing before we go to bed? Hmm.

2. Netflix. It’s easy to start one episode and than not be able to stop. Let’s face it, it can be addicting! In my case, I’m a mom and sometimes I want to veg out and think of nothing and do nothing. It’s not bad to take that time sometimes. But when it becomes a pattern and time is lost in it…Houston, there’s a problem.

3. Not being present by being a Text-a-holic. “Hanging out with people” but not really being there because I’m too busy texting, responding to texts, and basically being a terrible friend/wife/not being present. This has been something that now that I’ve examined in my life, annoys me greatly when people do it to me! So why should I do it to others?!

4. Pointless shopping/spending. This isn’t bad but if you do it too much, like I would…it can be plain stupid. Spending money you don’t need to spend and killing time when I can use it for something more meaningful. Again, this isn’t a terrible thing in moderation…but if it becomes habitual. Not good.

What I tried to do instead:

1. Deleted Instagram/Facebook app off my phone. I kept these apps on my iPad but turned off the notifications and tried not to make these things be the first thing I turn to in the morning. Instead, what about if I turned to my devotional instead? What if I started the day with an amazing verse and ended it on an amazing verse? It’s crazy how such a small change can make such a MONUMENTAL difference. Add prayer into this mix and it will literally change the entire course of your day.

2. Stopped watching too much TV/Netflx. I found that certain things I watched would actually affect my mood in a negative way. There’s so much TRASH out there. Why am I allowing it into my life or home? I started to watch things in moderation and also am careful with what I watch. I used to be a huge fan of “The Real Housewives” franchise until I took a step back and realized that it was complete garbage. Vanity, drama…just altogether yuckiness. It’s the same with The Bachelorette. This show has been my guilty pleasure, but when I stepped back and examined it, it’s pretty much filth. Sleeping with a different guy each night (Fantasy Suite) and stepping on everything I value and stand for so much – purity, dignity, integrity, a life of character. As a leader of a young women’s group – I had to say to myself, enough is enough.

Note – these are MY convictions. I’m not saying that if you watch/do any of these things you are evil. This is just where God convicted ME personally. Everyone’s journey is different and I completely respect that.

3. Started turning my phone off, putting it on Do Not Disturb, or just keeping it away from me and being present in the moment. This meant being a better friend. This meant I could actually listen, make eye contact, and respond appropriately to conversations. This applied to time with my husband as well. The time we have together is important and should be valued as so. This also means turning things off when I’m trying to spend time in God’s word. It’s SO EASY TO BECOME DISTRACTED. Distractions are literally everywhere. They can run the day if we allow them to. I don’t want to allow them to do that for me. My time is precious, sacred, and certain things and people deserve my undivided attention. I know God certainly does.

4. Being mindful of where my money/time out goes. I am trying to work on being a better spender and being better with my time out. I have been trying to spend my time sowing into the lives of others. I’ve recently been asked to take over our Moms/Married group at church and it’s super exciting. I’ve been spending a lot of my time reaching out to the women as a group and individually. My husband and I have been opening our home to our church and to different people we feel God has placed on our life, for dinner, for time together, etc. Young people in our church look up to us and our relationship (which is encouraging and can also be a lot of pressure…but it’s a good thing!) and we are trying to use this to bring glory to God and to impact others.

Luke says it pretty clearly, what we value is what we will give our hearts to.

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Luke 12:34

What do we value? Where will be put our time and our treasure?

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Not a slave to fear.

God has been dealing with my heart greatly in regards to fear. My world has been rocked by a lot of heavy things lately in regards to decisions I have to make about my health and also in regards to some things with one of my little boys. On every front I have felt attempts by the enemy to assault my faith and rob me of joy. To go back to a place of darkness and fear. My promise and strength has been found in this verse,

My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness…for when I am weak, then I am strong. – 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

In my weakest place, I am my strongest. Why? How is this even possible? Does it even make sense? YES. A thousand times, YES. When I am at my weakest point, I am at the end of myself. I know there is absolutely nothing I can do in my power. I know that I don’t have it figured out. Jesus says to me, MY GRACE – it’s enough. Enough to carry you when you are at your lowest point. When you have no strength. Maybe you are simply tired of fighting battle after battle. I have been there! There are times where I still experience that! Where I’m like, dang – I’m just so tired. I mean, another struggle God? Really? And then I remind myself of what His word tells me.

I learned a long time ago that just because I am Christian, does not guarantee that I have a magical easy life where everything goes right. I learned that when things sometimes flat out SUCKED at different points in my life. I learned that when I struggled with infertility. I learned that when I experienced an early miscarriage. It was confirmed when I watched one of my sons fight for his life. When my sons were born under circumstances that were anything but ideal and I faced one of the most dire situations in my life. Yet, God spelled it out plainly for me in His word when He said:

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:3

Christ wanted us to experience complete peace. A life of truth and freedom, not a relationship built on falsehoods and false promises of a perfect life without any struggle. That’s why we are reminded again in James –

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” – James 1:2

The keyword here is, “whenever…” not “if ever.” No, whenever, because we will all experience trials of MANY kinds. Trials that test our faith in the most challenging way. Trials that make us question everything we’ve ever known. Yet, when we are WEAK, His strength comes through for us. We don’t have to pretend to be strong or have it all together because His presence is with us every step of the way. God says, “Hey – You don’t need to have it all together. Don’t even bother pretending. I’ve got this.” I’ve experience supernatural-doesn’t-make-any-sense kind of peace in moments of my life where I should have felt chaos.

I refuse to give in to fear. I will not give in to doubt. I am His. I am loved. I am protected.  The song, “No longer a slave” has hit my soul in the deepest way. That is my anthem. “I am surrounded, by songs of deliverance.”

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The start of something new.

Hi there. Thanks for checking out this blog. I hail from Tales of a Twin Mombie where I write about all things motherhood and twin parenting, along with other topics that may come my way. I wanted to start a Christian blog where I could write from my heart and focus on all things faith. A place where I don’t feel obligated to write about poopy diapers, what my boys are eating, and all of that fascinating information (I know you are on the edge of your seats, wondering about that amazingness…it’s okay to admit it :)) I am like an onion. There are many layers to me. Peel by peel, you will see different sides of me….but my faith encompasses who I am. I am the person I am today because of Jesus Christ. Yes, I said it. Those two words that have become so increasingly controversial this day and age. Everyone is okay with God…but the minute you bring Jesus into it? Well, things get pretty real. I will touch that another day. Anyway, who I am as a person comes back to my faith. My faith has gotten me through some of the darkest times of my life. When the storms of life came my way, and boy…did they come my way, Christ was and continues to be – my anchor. It’s my hope that you will embark on a journey with me…a different kind of journey. I will write about some of the things that burn passionately in my heart. I’m excited to start this new chapter. I hope you will join me!

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